ChApTeR 10: gOiNg AgAiNsT mySeLf..aPoLoGiEs tO mY fReNs fOR noT BloGGinG fOr qUiTe SoME tiME.. ReAsOn bEiNg: 1) I've tot i've been having some problems with my health 2) I've gone thru tons and tons of checkups, with no results 3) I've been rather busy with attachments, and VERY exhausted 4) Doctor recently told me, nothing's wrong with my health 5) He added that i should see a counsellor since it might be anxiety disorder 6) I'm on counselling, which means i've absolute NO MOOD to blog...
However, due to some forseen and unforseen circumstances, i've been requested to blog. Therefore, here i am. LOL.. Tons and tons of stuff i wanna throw up, but juz tat i dunno wad to throw.. but i've been really depressed these few days. I feel really messed up.. No mood to study, no mood to play, no mood to even talk.. not to anyone.. juz feel like i shld be alone.. I've really not been getting enough slp.. but i really dunno y.. perhaps my frens were right... I really think too much.. Told this to the "psycho" doctor.. she told me it's not really my fault... some people do face such a problem of not being able to control their own tots and emotions.. But although she didn't verbalise it, i really noe tat it relates me somehow to psychiatric conditions [perhaps schizophrenia].. DARN.. somehow i wish i was knock down by a car and coma for 3 mths.. {oops, someone's gonna kill me :P} MaN!! gimme a break..
DAMN it.. guess i'LL really have to work harder to go against myself.. Who'S with me??? It's all right letting yourself go as long as you can let yourself back. [Mick Jagger, English rock singer (1943 - )]
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TheBlogger
a young boy with complicated thoughts yet with very big ambition.
